Ignorant/Arrogant
I don't really know how to describe this, but it's how I feel about myself.
Retardidiot
I always know what I should do to get what I want but still don't do for being a retard idiot, even when I really want/need that, I'm too afraid of failing and not being able to recover from my "mistake".
I guess I used more than 2 words, would like more tho