And, all about this life long lesson....
Let me just state something here, and speak out something in life....
I was bullied all my life through middle school and high school, I tried ending my life because of it 3 times. I then stood up for myself and fought back.... After that, I fucking shook hands with a guy that made my life a living hell through school, I shook his damn hand at graduation and said "I forgive you bro". After he fucking caused so much stress and depression in my life, I said sorry. Now, you are going to say I don't have a heart?
Here's another one:
My gf, who I am dating now.... I was pissed off and I walked in and she said "What's wrong" I told her "none of your damn business" she took off to the room, I was pissed, throwing shit around, punching the wall, and all that. I then dropped my attitude when I heard crying and opened the door and saw her packing her shit and crying. I know fucking anger doesn't get you no where, I know talking shit won't get you no where. I almost lost my GF due to my attitude. But once you are bullied most of your life, you will have mood swings every now and then, it's just the thing. I told my gf I was sorry, I gave her a kiss, and I straight up said "Look, I got in some shit today and I am sorry I took it out on you."
Now, this is for you guys:
Life is a bitch, you will meet people who honestly don't give a fuck who you are, and doesn't even have a heart. My RL friends are suprised that I have feelings for people, even though all my life I was treated like shit. Disowned, talked about, pushed around....
But, when I apologized, that bully that fucked my life over for a while straight up had a tear come out of his eyes and said "I am sorry". Yes, shit talking is in me, it's just sometimes I do it because I do it... I can stop myself sometimes, but when I am tired and high and have no cigs, I cannot control it.
It's the internet.. You got to learn to ignore it. I used to be just like you, crying when someone talked trash to me over the internet, but a friend of mine taught me how to cope with it. Most people talk shit just to test your buttons, to see if you will go off right back. That's when you just roll with the flow. Laugh at it, it's the internet.
Hopefully this will make you understand, and please read it all.